I'm Back. And so is It.

Two and a half years, boys and girls. Two and a half years of peace and health and joy, during which I could study, cry about exams, wonder if medicine is really for me, kiss my lover, think occasionally about marriage and children, and play chess drunk.


For two and a half years - from the last day I made a post of this damn blog, to today - I was free.


You don't understand. I was free from the sickness that had been burning in my chest, and frosting in my skull. I was free from the torment of something that, actually, I can only put down to some kind of odd radiation poisoning. I was free from the strange, bewildering, frightening presences and whispers I felt following me like some kind of deranged, sadistic cloud. Even that poem I found on my bed amounted to nothing.


I, Kev Elliot - not my real name - was free.


And safe.


And happy.


And with the woman I love.


And only worried about cuts to the NHS.


And only stressed about exams.


And only angry towards the tories.


But not anymore.


I just can't seem to have anything, really. Not for long. Not without it being spoilt by some invisible source of radioactive menace. Not without the sigma.


She warned us. The woman with the purple scarf and insane look in her eyes, in Bury St. Edmunds. She told us it was 'The Sigma'. I still don't know what that means.


But it's back.


God damn it all. It's back.


I abandoned this blog two and a half years ago - in the April of 2013 - because I had finally been convinced that my paranoia was all for nought. I abandoned it... because I didn't see the danger any more. Because the coughing and hacking and electronics going haywire had diminished to the point where it was gone. I made it originally to document my findings with regards to this Sigma thing, and the illness, and how me and Zack - you do remember Zackery, right? - were going to deal with it.


I made it to try and save us.


You will never truly know how painful it is to have to log back into it.


I thought it was over.


I was so wrong.


Welcome back to The Sigma Studies, ladies and gentlemen. I'll never say I missed it - I didn't.


But I guess I always knew I'd have to fight it again one day.


Maybe Zack will even join in this time.


Maybe you lot will even join in this time.


Until then, my friends. May we all sleep safely, and live through 'til dawn.

~ Kev Elliot. Again.